I wasn't that thought

by DUNUMS

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1.	binti 03:41	lyrics	buy track
‏بنتي عمرها 10 سنين شميت هوا التلفزيون ‏كنا بره بره كنا امسك الإيد حبيبي ‏بابا حبيب امسك إيدي إجا السؤال ‏يا ريت تصب لي الماي من عيني ‏بابا حبيبي ‏كاسة قهوة غلبني بابا حبيبي ‏جسم بلا ‏بلا جسم ‏ مشكلون ‏بابا حبيب امسك إيدي ‏شرب ماي ‏وقال خاي
2.	I wasn't that thought 04:49	lyrics	buy track
First I learned about grips Fingernails and nub tips To pass time I can flex a frown with no pain I can soul my frame with my name Let's get to breaking hot teeth Odd magic that thrashes meat When I want I carry this light that i found I can share the lane with my pounds Yeah thats me Im thickening Flickering in crips wind At stop signs IM THAT KID FEEL MY RANGE HOLD THIS NAME Before I thought There was a thought about me But I wasn’t that thought It was just me Aais tone went and cleared up all my storms She made me born Taught me heat Baba’s pulse its got a paw its got a print Its my indent Im a piece of it Sido got hurt and he couldn’t find my name That man's insane But he keeps me safe Tayta’s gift taught me lightness Taught me grit To laugh at the beach And weep whats wild Ajoba that mans a steady heady show Heart like a bro But steeped in peace Aaji gives hints with a flourish and a hiss Not Aais pissed That she head butt my feet Cause i'm that kid Feel my range Hold this name
3.	mouthful of pears 04:57	lyrics	buy track
HOME HORIZON BENDS ON AN ISLAND FROTH WENT POP PULP HIT THE SHORE WIND HEAVY LIKE A DOOR CLOSE SCREAM FROM UNDISCLOSED ROOMS SIFTED THROUGH A MOUTH FULL OF PEARS I FELT YOU THERE WHERE IS MY CHILD THERE SHE IS WANDERING BY THE STAR LINE I WONDER IF SHE HAD FELT THE BREEZE THE COLD THE HEAT THE STEEL THE STREET THE ROOM THE SHEETS WHERE I LEARNED HER NAME AND I LAID DOWN TO SLEEP, WITH MY STUFFIE OH PYRAMID WALLS DESPERATE AND FAKE I FELT THE ODD SHAPE OF SHADE BECOME ME IS THERE A MISTAKE A CRUMPLED EAR OH FLASHING IN PAIN WHILE STARES CAUGHT THE SEEDLINGS WHAT WHERE GLITTER CRUST MY OLDEST BRUISE ONE SMALL BREATH STAINED MIRROR LIKE MILK A MOUTH JUST FOR STRING FEELS HIVE LIKE LIGHT ON A FACE LIKE CREAM SWOLLEN STARES IN PUBLIC POOLS BRUISES AFTER SCHOOL WHERE IS MY CHILD THERE SHE IS WANDERING With the phone I WONDER IF SHE HAD FELT THE breeze THE peak THE beat THE SOFT THE STERN THE ROOM THE SHEETS WHERE I LEARNED HER FAITH AND I LAID DOWN TO WEEP, WITH MY ON JUI OH PYRAMID WALLS DESPERATE AND FAKE I FELT THE ODD SHAPE OF SHADE BECOME ME IS THERE A MISTAKE A CRUMPLED EAR OH FLASHING IN PAIN LIKE BEBOP on ROCK STEADY DRIFT OUT INTO A BLADE WHERE SUN MELTS THE SIGN COVERED IN BLUE GLAZE THAT VIBRATES A LOOSE TEAR I LEARNED MY WHOLE NAME IN ONE GULP OF STEAM THIS BREATH LEARNED HOW PRAY BY SMELLING IN WET FEET DANCING OUT IN MY HEART THERES ROOM FOR GOD THIS LOVE THAT I GIVE IS LOVE THAT ENGULFS ME
4.	honeycomb art on a billion twins 04:03	lyrics	buy track
My names tuss, hi im june We both hang together on the moon. Hey that's suss, I eat food Don’t look back i’ll swallow the whole spoon Bright green moss, charcoal flu Wrestle nestle mind and haughty taughty toons Cross Cross Walk, firefly moves Bear breath peace and help me tie my shoes Did you get to see the break in my stance. Hole in my mind Flesh from my breath Or did you freak when I felt 10K volts of straight up fire Oh I got glows like mole Under the sheets Asleep in a crease A fold of light Oh teach me Big baby ball sky I really really wanna go to your school Here’s the looking at you Point of view And lost at the start Honeycomb art on a billion twins I lost my shield, I lost my wind Something shiny in a cold collage Team beam swing On the refuse wing Up on the hill I wanna be there Big mountain kid with breath like a bear Nature wins when I need a ride I cross my arms and pretend to fight We were kids kicking the street Gathered in a lawn with too much to eat We protect a Mystery preferred Horizon line burned money earned Blurry jaw and a sandpaper stare Hates the ocean but Im going back there Bland Maison, keep me safe. Photoshopped home, take up real space. Ill follow you anywhere Facing the same Ultra-intimate never for fame Fractured prism in the sky busting on rippling wheat and rye Heat heat heat, rippling on me there wasn’t much color until god broke free
5.	butt parade 04:35	lyrics	buy track
BABY LOVE HONEY DEW DID YOU GRAB YOUR COAT CAUSE THE SUN BLEEDS COOL THE SUN IS CRUEL SWEET MEAT GIRL IS HOME SHE SAILED FOR YEARS AROUND THIS HOLE IN THIS SHITTY GAME THIS BUTT PARADE IS WHERE WE ALL WERE BORN EXPOSED MID SECTION: I LIKE NICE THINGS NICE THINGS FIND ME THIS SOUL I WON NO GOD MAN EARTH SON BLOOD BREATH FREE THING MY FIRST TRUTHS TINGLING BABY LOVE HONEY DEW DID YOU WRITE YOUR NOTE THERE’S A LADEL HERE A BUTTER PLATE FOR YOU TO CREAM YOUR NOSE SHE WIPED HER TEARS FROM HER THROAT THEN SHE LOOKED AROUND AND SAW A CLOUD AND NEW THAT SHE WAS HOME I felt Like a little fried bean silk of the sun Take me home
6.	nemo's story 01:51	info	buy track
7.	when we ate the world and its wars 03:24	lyrics	buy track
Exile in me Felt so unloved I fed him tea cookies Thawed his heart When we ate the world and its wars Silent earthworm strange resource Oh this heart can fold Give me your tired eyes your walrus bones Feel nothing When that breeze blows Ill be your juicy babe Riding on days Save your seat dear, hold your space There is a moon Behind the wave On a cloud In outer space Run run run Fast as the water When it flows through the stone And into the sewers When the beads on her head Passed through her brow the ice cream melted And entered her splinter Singing oh
8.	holding the cake up to the sky 03:10	lyrics	buy track
When babe fell Bob went blank Hazard mind Heart just died Care for me Careful plea Watered eyed Blood rushed thighs Holding the cake Up to the sky To grab the image of scale Commit it to mind I missed my dear friends Who missed holding me Whos holding my baby bear sticky and sweet Oh oregon trails Analog wine Blessed time was spent Passing the time
9.	there are dreamlands 01:54	lyrics	buy track
Sometimes at night Scarcity Hopelessness Where am i And what is home But there are Dreamlands And abundance We are hope Take my hands Stray with me Lets choose life Build this home And when life comes oh we’ll grow I trust you with all my soul Forever young we’ll grow old I love you
10.	usa ain't shit 00:57	info	buy track
11.	the portal 03:22	info	buy track
12.	habibi bear 01:01	lyrics	buy track
Habibi bear habibi bear Everywhere you go Love will be there Babas in the nest cooking you up a feast He loves it when your fed he loves it when you eat Habibi bear habibi bear Everywhere you go Love will be there Aai’s in the garden showing you all the plants Their beauty makes us smile their magic makes us dance Habibi bear habibi bear Everywhere you go Love will be there

about

"I wasn't that thought" is a mix of songs and moments that marked a sustained period of inspiration I couldn’t seem to shake. The grief of the pandemic, the birth of my dear child Tasneem, the witnessing of the Save Sheikh Jarrah movement and the genocide in Gaza. Profound beauty, strength, and horror that brought me – of all things – songs. Palestine-centric Toddler-core anthems.

Most of the album is from the perspective and voice of Tasneem -- her wonder, earliest impressions of our world, her first hurts, her big messes, our traumas, and what life feels like when change is overwhelming. There are songs here on love -- its projections and protections, the kind of love I have for myself, the way it is our magnet towards the world we all deserve and don’t have right now.

In the mornings after Tasneem was born I would scoop her from the bed and take her downstairs to mingle with the early light and the cat while my partner slept a few extra hours. We would sense each other, talk and try to hold our heads up. Most mornings I would play her these songs, work them out while she stared at me from her pillow or practiced her ‘tummy-time.’

Making this record reminded me of how I got into playing music as a young person – moving sound and air made it feel safer to feel the bigness inside and outside of me. I wanted to write music that felt like a memory of the emo songs that made me cry as a kid. I wanted to capture the angst of being so small in a big enveloping vortex of things and more things. And the near-painful sensation of glee about life, friends, and being a kid.

credits

released October 4, 2024

All songs written by Sijal Nasralla
Produced by Sijal Nasralla and David Barratt
All songs recorded, engineered, and mixed by David Barratt except for “binti” by Saman Khoujinian
Mastered by Saman Khoujinian
Album art by Saba Taj

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DUNUMS Durham, North Carolina

Arty, noisey, post-rock, bedroom fake-jazz for a free Palestine. DUNUMS is the improvisations and churnings of Sijal Nasralla. Blending memory and homeland heartache into feelingsfull sonic moments on family, love, rage, and how "God" will always be greater. ... more

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