1. |
irreversible
04:39
|
|||
|
you wanna see the show tonight?
hold my drink and watch me bleed
all my happiness escapes me
so i’ll raise a toast for misery
it’s something you can count on
the pain is my old friend
i know we’ll both still be here
after the party ends
i was holding out for a good time
but a good time’ll let you down
it don’t last forever
sorrow always comes around
i don’t get my hopes up
i was weaned on poison
if you don’t count on no one
you won’t be disappointed
how’d i end up at this party?
how’d i get lost in this crowd?
all the boys and girls are scheming
to get the poison out
always looking for the next buzz
when this one’s lost its charm
i think it’s time i made my exit
i think i’ve had enough
you were holding out for a good time
but a good time’s not your friend
it always costs you something
the crash is coming in the end
and who are all these people?
i don’t think they’d understand
i stay in my bedroom
i don’t make plans
you were holding out for a son
but i had other ideas
your beautiful son is dead
i killed him, you’re welcome
i devoured him from the inside out
now there’s nothing left of him
monster princess come to life
such a beautiful parasite
you wanna see the show tonight?
it’s a sordid, dreadful affair
i always root for the monsters
do i make you feel scared?
don’t say i didn’t warn you
don’t say you weren’t prepared
if what you see still haunts you
after the party ends
|
||||
2. |
ragdoll
04:42
|
|||
|
i waited so long for
some stranger to rescue me from my
desperate, lonely
black pit of shame and despair
could you be my saviour?
the one who i pray for at night
i’ll do anything to make myself
worthy of your attention
i’ll do anything to make myself
worthy of your possession
if i need punishing, i’ll do what i must
to learn my lesson
do what you will, i can take it
i won’t struggle, it’s all i’m good for
i’ll fall at your feet, i’ll debase myself
it’s what i deserve, this is shameful
better to be a bad object than nothing at all
i’ll always be expendable
so do what you will, i can take it
i won’t struggle, it’s all i’m good for
why do you hate me?
did i do something wrong?
i’m sorry i’m like this
i’m sorry i’m useless
i promise i’ll be good
i’ll show you how good i can be for you
i must be something hateful
i must be disgusting to you
do what you will, i can take it
i won’t struggle, it’s all i’m good for
i’ll fall at your feet, i’ll debase myself
it’s what i deserve, this is shameful
better to be a bad object than nothing at all
i’ll always be expendable
so do what you will, i can take it
i won’t struggle, it’s all i’m good for
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault
|
||||
3. |
pincushion
05:07
|
|||
|
there’s a cop in my head
he doesn’t like what he sees
everywhere i go, he lets me know
there’s something wrong with me
i can’t move my arms
i can’t move my mouth
she told me how she needs my help
to get the poison out
you can pull my strings
you can watch me move
she makes me do things
i don’t want to do
there’s a cop in my head
there’s nowhere to hide
he says i’m life unworthy of life
just a parasite
she took the razor out
she held it to my neck
she’s in my nightmares now
i’ll never get her out
she’s so good to me
she takes care of me
there’s such a coldness in her eyes
it scares me
promise you won’t leave me
promise you won’t go
promise you won’t leave me
promise you won’t
|
||||
4. |
dog clutch
03:52
|
|||
|
they always said she would be trouble
always said she was no good
i didn’t listen when they warned me
i was so sure it was love
such a sweet girl
she led me right into her little trap
if you see her, listen to me
run away while you still can
run, run away
you may feel like you’re in heaven
you may feel like she’s the one
don’t be fooled by a first impression
your nightmare has just begun
if you sleep in the arms of a sorceress
you will fall under her spell
you’re just supply to her, believe me
save yourself and run like hell
run, run away
i can’t undo the scars she gave me
all those pills she made me take
the blackout parts i don’t remember
and it makes me feel sick
you’ll see her true face behind the disguise
watch her lie, cheat, and steal
you will spend your nights in sorrow
if she gets a hold on you
so run, run away
they always said she would be trouble
always said she was no good
i didn’t listen when they warned me
i was so sure it was love
such a sweet girl
she led me right into her little trap
if you see her, listen to me
run away while you still can
run, run away
run, run away
|
||||
5. |
mutant becoming
03:43
|
|||
|
angel of transformation, please lift this curse
i’ll let go of the life i led, no matter if it hurts
i’ll suffer what i have to, i’ll suffer what i must
please, please lift this curse
angel of transformation, let me be reborn
i’m ready to take my final step through that door
i offer you my body, i offer you my soul
please let me be reborn
angel, please let me see the other side
i can’t keep on living this life that isn’t mine
i know you can see right through my disguise
please let me see the other side
angel, please let me be where i belong
my kindred are calling me, i can hear them, i can hear them
i’ll suffer what i have to, i’ll suffer what i must
please let me be where i belong
please let me be where i belong
please let me be where i belong
|
||||
6. |
morning star
05:15
|
|||
|
we walked away from all we knew
there’s nothing for us there
with no place for us in this world
we wander this wicked world
and they call you the morning star
you would not serve the laws of this world
they say that pride is a deadly sin
so we must be cast out
kiss me here before the fall
one more time before the road
until we find that secret place
let us at least have this
these strangers see some sideshow freaks
we’ll find no shelter here
we wandered for a thousand years
in this desert
and they call you the morning star
you will not serve the laws of this world
they say that pride is a deadly sin
so we must be cast out
why must they try to villainise my love?
why must they try to villainise my love?
why must they try to villainise my love?
why must they try to villainise my love?
and they call you the morning star
you will not serve the laws of this world
they say that pride is a deadly sin
so we must be cast out
they call you the morning star
you will not serve the laws of this world
they say that pride is a deadly sin
so we must be cast out
|
||||
7. |
follow the black rabbit
03:44
|
|||
|
this body is a puzzle
i don’t know how to solve it
you ask if you can try
and so i let you try
i open like a flower
i open like a wound
i feel the door open
for you, the door will open
i’ll give up all my secrets to you
i saw a kali yuga
a thousand years of darkness
a thousand black moths
blotting out the sun
you fed me your poison
there’s poison in the seed
you told me i was precious
i wanted to be precious
you shot down the sun to give to me
we’re not made for heaven
we’ll never see heaven
we’ll stick god with our knives
and watch him bleed out
we’ll desecrate his image
my body is the image
our love is the image
we’ll make our own image
we’ll put our own image in his place
this body is a puzzle
i don’t know how to solve it
you ask if you can try
and so i let you try
i open like a flower
i open like a wound
i feel the door open
for you, the door will open
i’ll give up all my secrets to you
i’ll give up all my secrets to you
i’ll give up all my secrets to you
|
||||
8. |
outlaws
05:53
|
|||
|
my love, you ran with the wolves of the wild
no master could tame you
nor restrain your outlaw’s heart
they came with their torches and dogs
you’ve outrun them for so long
my love, don’t let them take you away
don’t let them take you, please don’t go
it’s more than my spirit can take
don’t walk away from me, my love
they hunt us to feed their machine
like our mother before us
the machine never rests
it will never be sated
til they’ve destroyed us
sister, i’ve seen you evade them too much
to fall through a crack in this world
my love, don’t let them take you away
don’t let them take you, please don’t go
it’s more than my spirit can take
don’t walk away from me, my love
i gave you the key to my heart
in promises made in the dark
i let you inside
and under the light of the moon
i gave myself up to you
but if you take that road
the road that leads no-one-knows-where
i cannot follow you there
my love, don’t let them take you away
don’t let them take you, please don’t go
it’s more than my spirit can take
don’t walk away from me, my love
|
||||
9. |
the great white south
04:09
|
|||
|
she’s leaving the bar
she’s walking away
it’s a long, cold, lonely winter
without you, babe
she took me for a ride, just how i like
she left her marks on my skin
i wore them with pride
she don’t come around no more
love memories fade, the lustful ones remain
and she’s cold as ice, like otago in july
the antarctic riviera, she’s got a bite to her
which way will i go, now that i’m alone?
i hope there’s an earthquake
i hope it’s the big one
and it wipes out this town
and all the buildings fall down
i hope it takes you with me
i hope it won’t be long
everyone who falls for me is crazy
i guess you’d have to be
the ones who are sane, they don’t stick around
they get sick of my bullshit
and i don’t blame them
|
||||
Hazel Elder Wellington, New Zealand
Hazel Elder is a singer/producer based in Te Whanganui-a-Tara/Wellington, NZ. She also releases drone/ambient music under the name Thursday Decibel.
If you like Hazel Elder, you may also like:
Rising Sun Mixtape vol.2
by Rising Sun Collective
featured on Bandcamp Radio Jul 6, 2021
go to album
Written over the course of two years, “Chances” captures an array of life experiences in moving soft-focus pop songs.
go to album
Argentinian producer Lila makes distorted, shimmery lo-fi electronic music heavily influenced by shoegaze.
go to album
Nice Coordinated Outfit
by High Pass Filter
Definitive, career-spanning compilation from the iconic Australian avant-garde band, combining elements of dub, shoegaze, and more.
go to album
Des Rêves Étranges [EP]
by Galatée
Pretty, Lush-inspired dream pop has a gentle touch, with whispered spoken-sung French vocals drifting lightly over shimmering guitars.
go to album
featured on Bandcamp Radio Feb 15, 2022
go to album
Forever In Your Heart
by Black Dresses
Toronto duo follow up 2020's breakout "Peaceful as Hell" with a chaotic noise pop LP that ratchets up the aggression, as well as the hooks.
go to album
