I remember, the first time i got my laptop, it was the moment where i have immersed gaming and the internet far more then i ever had. i started somewhere small and broke. a young mans dream to make a living and comfort of being a gamer. leeching off my parents paycheck, play some well-known games such as team fortress 2, payday 2, war thunder, etc. low FPS and long download time, it was nothing more then that.
however, it didn't come with the fact that we grow older and once we grow old, we grow out of it. it never feels the same picking up favorite video games and get immersed with all the factors that have contributed to our entertainment. i grew up with video games. now it was probably far earlier before that. i started playing with my gameboy. continued with the nintendo, then my sisters laptop, my mobile phone samsung s3. that really got me hooked up during high-school, i barely can remember that time. poor thing was getting malware and ads. anyways, playstation 3 was a nice welcoming console platform but it's service sure didn't last long either, and then, my very own laptop. 4 years later my mom brought me a mediocre 600€ PC. 2 years later, got a janitor job and thought about saving up money to build a custom gaming pc. now im happy to have such a good gaming pc that runs every game smooth, but see that's the problem. now i can play any game happily with ease (besides the terrible internet connection). and at that time where i have built my gaming pc, i was not getting enjoyment out of it anymore. i was downloading and playing almost every game in my library and no matter which game, i was getting burnt out immediately because i have reached a moment in my life, where nothing is fun anymore. many factors outside have played an important role for that reason such as: family, my future, mental health, the environment i live in. i couldn't understand why i felt that way but after such a long time it definitely was an interesting "experiment" to have partaken on. getting to know myself and my limits, the internet and understanding aswell as learning whatever i have done so far.

i really have to say, the internet for the generation milennia and zoomer, heck even for the boomers, was something else then what we have today. during my time, it was a place that got us connected with people we either knew of or people that had similarity. technology was improving but was limited by what was available. social media was serving at its name and video games were at its peak because developers wanted to get something done. but that time didnt stick long for sure... AND IT WAS a different time, you cannot argue with that. the old days were just better. sometimes we gotta cut our losses and have to move on. maybe there could be something of it that we can gain out of it, we would have known about it. but for me.... it never will be the same.
now coming back to my point, i am done with video games. friends have been made, games have been fully played and memories will become memories. i played them, if not, most video games and see the calamity that video games have been dealing since the digital market has pushed them through. like what the ♥♥♥♥ do you mean i don't own what i paid? it deserves to be pirated. it is a service issue, not a you issue.
either way, it is time to reflect my past and continue the journey forward. leave it as a mark of remembrance that nothing could have been better without it and therefore be grateful.