my tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I

got out of bed at all

the morning rain clouds up my window

and I can't see at all

and even if I could it'd all be grey

but your picture on my wall

it reminds me that it's not so bad it's not so bad

I’m so calm I could kill you but I’m gonna kiss you and love you until I don’t hate you

I’m so calm I could make you the martyr but I do what’s harder this is my departure

I’m so calm I could write you a letter my knife is a pen it gets better and better

It’s subtle the way you measured every detail

Until I was small enough to hide in plain sight

Everything inside me’s all been ours

I’m angry but I’m staying scary calm

When did it end

All the enjoyment

I'm sad again

Don't tell my girlfriend

It's not what she's made for

What was I made for

the gods of olympus have abandoned me

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⣿⣿⣿⣿⠁⣰⣦⡀⠛⠛⠛⠛⠻⠟⠁⣴⣦⡀⢻⣿⣿⣿
⣿⣿⣿⠃⢰⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣷⡀⠿⠿⢿
⣤⣤⡄⢲⣿⡟⠛⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠟⠻⣿⠰⣶⣾
⣁⣠⣤⢘⣯⣱⣶⠿⡿⣄⣀⣄⣀⠞⡛⢿⣷⣦⠉⣰⣤⣼
⣿⣿⣿⣦⡈⠀⢠⣦⣤⡀⠙⠋⣀⣶⣶⣄⢫⢁⣠⣾⣿⣿
⣿⣿⣿⡇⢠⡄⢹⣿⣿⣿⢆⣞⣿⣿⣿⠃⢀⠄⠈⣿⣿⣿
⣿⣿⣿⣧⣄⢠⣾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣷⣿⣿⣿⣶⠀⠠⣾⣿⣿⣿
⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠀⡘⢽⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡿⢁⣴⠀⣿⣿⣿⣿
⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⠀⣿⠒⠉⠛⠿⠿⠟⠋⠰⣿⡿⠀⣹⣿⣿⣿
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It's so romanticized

If this is how I die

That's alright