Despite having been unhappy in my job, leaving Liberty yesterday was harder than I anticipated. I spent the last few months since my position was eliminated referring to my experience as “a gift”. The situation forced me to not just roll through a reorganization like I have been fortunate (?) to do in the past but to make a choice… what kind of work do I enjoy, after 23 years on the hamster wheel do I need a career break, what have my career commitments meant to my work/life balance, to my emotional health, what does my family need from me, do I want to reapply for a job here or is this the push I needed to diversify my career, is the job market as bad as it sounds, are my skills marketable… the list of life questions goes on.
At one point really early in the process I was going to activate my retirement “busy goals” - I was going to teach yoga (I’m not certified) and bake cupcakes (I’m a horrible baker)! I still laugh when I say that out loud and it’s still a stay-busy-goal for my retirement, just not yet.
I then considered a long break - 6 months minimum - basically a full time wife, mom, daughter, friend and time to focus on my emotional health. I encourage anyone who can do this to do it. You won’t regret putting your family first, ever.
While it was clear I didn’t know exactly what I wanted to do, I knew the best possible way for me to care for my family and self was to leave Liberty Mutual. So I did.
It was my choice to not post for internal roles and I do not blame Liberty for putting me a position to leave. Instead I’m grateful! It may sound crazy, but I’m grateful because I needed the opportunity to reflect, ask myself what I really wanted, and be pushed towards my potential.
Now the sappy part. After 23 years Liberty Mutual was a part of my identity, *or so I thought*. What I realized as I closed out my final week yesterday is the company isn’t my identity, the PEOPLE I’ve been able to work with are. Life and career experiences will always come down to the people you surround yourself with. Because of the way I left the company people took time to reach out and express how I impacted them. So. Many. People. People from my first role through my last, from coast to coast, in positions of all levels. I had all the emotions this week and sadness was one I didn’t expect to face for a gift I received, a choice I made, and a path I am excited to take. To all my internal colleagues that signed my e-card, emailed me, called me, IM’d me… you have no idea how much your thoughtfulness strengthened me, even if I did show it through tears!
Within 6 weeks or so of my reflective journey I realized I actually do love my job and I really do want to balance a professional career into my personal life. I want to be part of something inspiring. I love leading people (and I’m good at it)! Stay tuned to see where I’m headed next.
Natural Resources Coordinator at City of Maplewood
4moCongratulations Terrie! It was such a pleasure to work with. You are so friendly, patience and kind. Enjoy your retirement!